Princess and I are both well and good. Except for moving no other major changes to my life have occurred, and I am still undecided about the rest of what I had in mind.

Blogging seems to have become a problem to upkeep, if thats what it's called. I know for me personally I don't know what to say or write about and it's hard for me to express myself in such a open way. Most I know are opeing free accounts such as blogger or some other free blog site, seems like a good idea.

My domain expires towards the end of January I think the 29th, I was thinking about just letting it go but if I do that I can't call my site Solar Blue or Can I?? It would just feel weird, I have a whole lot of space over at Freepgs, well it used to be called that but now it's something else, I think, maybe I might just move across keep and redirect the domain but let hosting expire, I don't know, I am not all that domain, hosting savvy. But whatever I decide to do everyone will know.

Just a little about what's been happening. I have moved to Melbourne but nothing much else. I am not sure what I am doing, where I am headed, where my life goes from here or if anything is the right thing anymore.

My family, well whats left of it anyway, don't want anything to do with me, so I guess what happened was all my fault. I am not ready to go into all the details of what has happened, I am so confused about it all, I am all over the place that I can't even explain it.

I haven't posted much this last year, so much has happened which has left me depressed, most of the time I'm afraid to go out, afraid of being assaulted. I haven't spoken about it, instead I have put up with the abuse from people I don't know and have kept it hidden within myself, I didn't want to burden anyone with my problems. I have had my place graffitied, broken bottles thrown at my front and back doors, I have been threatened to have my car and place fire bombed. The police won't do anything because of their ages. All of this because I tried to help someone in my family and now because of that I am being abused by her friends.

I went to Melbourne and have found a place there to live, I'll be moving there within a week. I'm changing my name legally and have also put in a application on Friday to study part-time evening aged care next year at tafe, I hope they accept me just have to wait and see.

My 21st birthday was quiet, which is how I wanted it, I received a gorgeous tree pillow from Flutter, so cute and Joanne sent me the cutest sigtags you could ever imagine.

Geelong won the AFL Grand Final, woohoo. I know nothing about football but I said on the morning that Geelong was going to win and they did.